I Really Really Miss You.

I feel pathetic. And I deserve to I guess, I mean it's been half a year and I still can't move on. I thought I did, but I'm back to my old ways. I guess it is true what they say, old habits really do die hard. I just can't seem to forget you. How do you forget someone who gave you so much to remember? It doesn't help I've been seeing you almost everyday lately. I pass you in the halls now, and it's like torture. Seeing you laughing with other girls. I was talking to your best friend and he was joking and said "Oh deep down I bet you still love him," I laughed and told him he was totally wrong. Damn, if only you knew how much of a lie that was. See, I would tell you I miss you but I know it wouldn't mean anything, nothing would change. Hell, you'd probably laugh in my face. I just miss you so much. I miss all of you. How you thought turtles lived in trees, how you complained about everything and everyone. I miss your sarcasm and all your stupid random facts. I miss how you called me Fischer, I miss how you had the best sense if humor. I miss how you were the sweetest guy I've ever met, I miss how you'd tell me stupid things about yourself like how much you despised pinecones as we laid next to each other in the summer grass. How you tell me how much you loved to watch me run because I look like I have such total bliss and how you noticed my use of big words. I miss how you used to make me feel smart, beautiful and just amazing. But the thing I miss by far the most ******, is you. You being mine, spending time with you and making memories. Just you.