Seriously, fuck you. Fuck you for making me feel this way. For making me feel used and like this was all pretend. You bastard. Fuck you for making me feel worthless. You never text me anymore. Yeah, that's cool... I'm always the one making an effort to talk to you. And now I find out you've been telling me the same exact shit you told her? At least you made me feel special for a while. I feel like when you couldn't get her back you decided you wanted me. I'm no second choice. I have so much more self respect than her. I deserve so much more. I will not have "love" if it doesn't come with respect. Yet, I still won't dump you. I know that, I'm too forgiving of a person. I did it with Jessie and ill sure as hell do it with you. Sometimes I hate being nice. God, I can do so much better than you. By tomorrow I prolly will be completely and hopelessly in love again but for now I'm just gonna keep on listening to Ron Pope and rant about shit on the Internet. You know what? It's decided. I'm not gonna make a single effort to talk to you tomorrow. Not one! I will not text you first. I will not walk up to you and start a conversation. Nope, and if there's a single lull in the conversation so help me I will sit on my phone and start texting. JUST. LIKE. YOU. Honestly, I just wanna see if you notice. Hell, I just wanna see if you care. You probably won't...
Notice any resemblance? Grrr....
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