One Of Those Nights

Do you ever have one of these nights? Where you just get all sad for seemingly no reason at all? I was just kinda thinking that Carters the only good thing in life lately. I feel like I should be just overwhelmingly happy, and sometimes I am, I guess, but all the other bad things in life are starting to overshadow his good. I mean life at home, well thats just been hell. I had a complete breakdown on sunday. I just really couldnt do it anymore and I honestly dont think I can handle them screaming at me one more time. I couldnt stop crying for hours and I jest kept mumbling "I cant do this anymore, I cant..." Yet my parents still had the odascity of nagging at me while I was like that. They wouldnt leave me alone. It made it even worse. And I guess I've just finally realized my friends don't give a shit about me. None of them do. I care about so many people, I really do yet it seems as if nobody else can seem to care about me. My friends dont realize how bad it's gotten. I'll never be able to forget all the things Liv said to me, Jessie's starting with the whole I-got-a-boy-so-now-imma-be-super-secretive thing, Maroos just going on with her drama as are all the rest of them. I guess it's the same as always I've just started looking at it in a new light. I'm starting to think I'm not okay. I'm just really not okay.