It was a Tuesday night, there was no school and I were at the last football game of the season. All in all, it had been an AMAZING night. I got to hang out with my best friend and I got to talk to J all night! And like all my other friends! I'm pretty sure J was even flirting with me... But he still has a girlfriend. He didn't talk to her at all last night and she's planning to break up with him. Because of me. And honestly I fell kinda bad about it even though I don't think I should. Should I? I mean I've never made a move on him, had meaningful physical contact, or even told him I like him. Plus, his girl friend is telling everyone I have "mental issues" and that I have to take like 8 pills a day! I mean I gotta give her props, it's creative! :P But shes also been calling me fat and a whore and things like this, which I'm know I'm not at all any of these things and I'm confident enough not to care but still, not cool. I just don't know how to feel because I also understand where shes coming from, I'd probably be doing the same thing if I was in her position. I'm just kinda starting to think J's not such a great guy anymore but I still really like him. :/ I mean if he treats his girlfriend like this how would he treat me if we go out? I can appreciate that nobody's perfect but maybe I can do better? But I still really, REALLY like him. :/ I'm just really confused about all of it. He's hilarious, and adorable and really nice to me but not to everyone else. I'm sitting here texting him and remembering why I started liking him but then I think of how he totally ignored his girlfriend to talk to me. She even started crying and I just kinda feel like a horrible person. Am I one?
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